Melanie C - Cruel Intentions

The weight inside me is as heavy as a loaded gun 
Exploring the pain I discover it's fun 
Makes me understand why you behave the way you do 
Inflicting this on myself brings me closer to you 

Lay with me your cruel intentions 
Cut me deep with your deception 
Tenderly without affection 
Do you help yourself by hurting me? 

No longer shocking how quickly you turn from good to bad 
First lesson today start believing the facts 
Your condemning me is valid, maybe that's your truth 
My question is this, where is the proof? 

Lay with me your cruel intentions 
Cut me deep with your deception 
Tenderly without affection 
Do you help yourself by hurting me? 

Before you drag me under 
Another breath, you take the air from me 
Un-create this monster 
Let me steel the tainted air you breathe 

Lay with me your cruel intentions 
Cut me deep with your deception 
Tenderly without affection 
Do you help yourself by hurting me